Very clear that i want to experience the depth of relationship with the Light I have had in the past. And then that I have a concern about that being SELFISH, a concern I recognize from years ago, a concern that I thought attending my current Semiprogramned meeting might address in thatI could more easily share. Instead I've been loosing the connection.
Later I grew a clairity that questioning of Selfishness blocks hearing the Leadings.
I fear becoming a totally inward looking person who doesn't leave the world better. Writing that I don't think that's a reasonable worry relative to the general track of my life. I think I need to let that worry go and trust that I will listen to what I am called to do.