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[Dec. 16th, 2015|06:25 am]
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More rain is coming, and it's churlish to complain. Although it's made picking out something to do next Monday a challenge. Art museums are closed - that was the top of the list - and it doesn't look like pleasant weather to visit Yosemite.

[personal profile] a_muse_d: it looks like you really have rain headed your way. Thinking of you.

I have been incommunicado. I have revised my assessment and now think this is 60% depression and not just the cold. My resistance to communication (replying to comments, email) is one significant symptom. Yes, thank you for the well wishes! I'm receiving, just not sending. This morning journaling is an attempt to break that habit. (It's not that big a break.)

Yesterday i ran the bright, bright light, and that helped immensely. With the rain coming i will need to be extra intentional about getting light.

Regarding the other 40%, i've some strategies. My lungs are clear, and i am not in an asthma flare. The doctor suspects a sinus infection and suggests using the "rescue" inhaler as a prophylactic. I need to get out and walk, and taking the inhaler in advance seems a good plan. Similarly, before meetings. Since the medication has a non-negligible co-pay, I am happy to get some use out of it beyond carrying it everywhere with me until it expires.

I think Christine and i have been reinforcing a negative spiral with each other: with both of us trying to pull back on the stick, maybe we can both be in a cheery place by Monday (which is our 24th anniversary).

Hmm - and then there's exercise with the rain coming. Maybe i should strategize a bit on the deck with the bike stand. The "go to a big box store and do laps" is utterly unappealing at this time of year.
Or maybe this is the time to get serious about a yoga routine.

Luigi, the cat we adopted from our neighbor this summer, is settling in. He visits me at my desk, reaches out to stop me from walking past him without a scritch. He is a large-ish cat, and hasn't really grocked how to use a lap. He stands and sits upright. Yesterday, for the first time, he settled down for a moment. He's a very sweet cat, although he has a vacuum cleaner appetite. Smooches mooches is a nickname, given how he goes around to the other cats' bowls to finish up for them. Given Greyie Loo's name, he's also being called Wigi Loo (and Ouija Board) at times.


[User Picture]From: gurdonark
2015-12-17 03:07 am (UTC)
I do like walking in malls this time of year. Though the crowds are annoying, the sheer anonymity of being among shoppers is empowering--a "nobody's watching, nobody knows me" feeling I like sometimes. Like walking in a desert--of people.
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[User Picture]From: elainegrey
2015-12-18 03:44 pm (UTC)
I so rarely go into malls that i find the pop and dazzle of ornamentation and sales and music to be a bit overwhelming --now airports, i do like striding out in airports, even if they're crowded. They're stimulating in some ways, but not quite as much. I do like discovering art in the various ways different airports have installed it. Is it Denver that has little brass "fossils" in the terrazzo flooring?
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[User Picture]From: elainegrey
2015-12-20 11:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you! We celebrated early. I'm not sure how 24 years have managed to pass. I suspect it's the same way i have wrinkles around my eyes.

I'm sure Christine will be in better spirits once we pass the holidays, and i am feeling more "up" and energized.
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[User Picture]From: johnpalmer
2015-12-20 10:26 pm (UTC)
The plus side is that few other people are exercising right now - unless you mean "actual store" when you say "big box store" in which case - it doesn't matter that no one else is *exercising*.

This is a reason I bought a treadmill, I must confess!

Good luck feeling better.
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[User Picture]From: elainegrey
2015-12-20 11:31 pm (UTC)
Indeed, i meant a big box store where all the people are who are not exercising. I've got a stand for the bike that puts resistance on the back tire so it becomes a stationary bike. Where it would sit inside is no occupied by Christine's keyboard.

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