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[Apr. 2nd, 2015|07:04 am]

Current pondering various financial strategies for housing. We don't have a pressure on us, but i wonder about paying rent vs paying (equity+interest)+taxes+insurance. If the later is better, switching sooner is better. Yet water shortage and uncertainty whether we could stay here without my current job.... So, ponder. We've set a moratorium on decision making so that we can spend the time pondering, dreaming, imagining with intention.

Becoming an orchardist with peaches and various fruits and nuts in coastal Carolina areas passes through my mind as wishful thinking.


I shared with Christine my impression that i am slower and not getting as much done as i used to. (Not talking about my employed activity here.) Could it be that in the years of dealing with trauma and angst, with depression, the effort crowded everything else and made it seem to me like i was interacting more? (The "done" as i think of it is reading the morning news and folks' journals and my email as well as my journaling and introspection.) Perhaps i am doing more unrecorded introspection? I can't help but believe that this sense of less done and time evaporating is an illusion (although time is pretty illusory), and that my capacity is more now.

My goals for "Conditions of Enoughness" were met yesterday, and i'm trying to not write, "The goals were embarrassingly meager and i can't imagine not meeting them, but i haven't met goals for so long." Belittling and beating myself up isn't going to help. I met the goals! Yay!


[User Picture]From: tx_cronopio
2015-04-02 03:00 pm (UTC)
Well, if you're anything like me, some of the getting slower is just getting older. And not caring as much :). Add the trauma and angst on top of that, and it's no wonder.

We are getting a lot of flak from Engineer's family about our decision to rent (yes, as if it's their business). I don't know that we always will, but buying a home is a big deal right now, especially with the economy the way it is...if you need to move cities for a job, it's a lot easier if you're just renting, and it is nice to not have to worry about lawn maintenance, replacing appliances, etc. True, we're not building equity, but there's something to be said for freedom.
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[User Picture]From: amaebi
2015-04-02 10:20 pm (UTC)
Congratulations on meeting your goals!
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[User Picture]From: gurdonark
2015-04-03 09:24 am (UTC)
The good thing about rent v.own is that it lends itself to spreadsheets. Here in the Dallas area, own is often the winner but when we lived in CA, rent had lots of virtues.

I am slower and get less done due to age, I think.
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