||[Jan. 13th, 2015|06:27 am]
This morning's reading: Brechin, Gray. “A New Deal for California.” Boom 4, no. 4. Accessed January 12, 2015. http://www.boomcalifornia.com/2015/01/a-new-deal-for-california/. Recommended for a reminder of the scope of the New Deal and advertisement for how you can get involved in Citizen History: http://livingnewdeal.org/
I do note the irony of "crowd sourcing" in an era when we could have used a Newer Deal to hire historians to do this.
Yesterday's was the poster abstracts and Thursday's talk abstracts from “2015 CNPS Conservation Conference: Celebrating 50 Years of Progress and Promise.” San Jose, CA, 2015. http://www.cnps.org/cnps/conservation/conference/2015/.
What if you allowed space and time? If you didn’t force the current or want everything to come the way you want it NOW? What if you were patient and accepting of life’s natural timing? What if you allowed space and time to allow the fruit of your creativity to ripen. http://tinybuddha.com/blog/50-creative-questions-to-create-the-life-you-really-want/
This is what i have been trying to do over the past handful of years, to some extent. I've notes about tracking the tides of my energy (often at ebb) and learning from my depression. So, reports from there: there's a force this goes against, and that is the force of dominant culture. The self-talk learned from all the helpful articles about setting goals, the type-A achievement culture pushes against this. Probably .. possibly... there are folks who are accepting of life's timing and are prolific fountains. I'm a little jealous of them at times. I've reached an age where i hear Successful People talking about their formative years and i choke, realizing they are younger than i.
If you allow natural timing, the unnatural world will jet around you giving you the sense that you are stuck in the mud. You need to find a way to deal with the backwash from those motors.
My experience is that it is a good feeling, this natural flow of the order of things. There is still discernment to be done: there are currents to avoid, currents to catch. There are equilibria that bring about a survival state, like being caught in an eddy, pushed into a backwater. One doesn't have to accept that, and there are ways to migrate to other environments with more dynamic equilibria. I think that's the challenge: if you're caught in a stagnant state, how do you migrate to a more dynamic state without over doing it and overpowering the natural flow?
I think of my reading about systems, and realize the answer may be that if one chooses to be patient and accept life's natural timing, one also must choose to be sensitive and alert... and there's something here about great disappointment and joy. There's something about overpowering the natural flow to fight disappointment. I don't think this question is about blindly accepting: i think of various health issues, and i don't think accepting a diagnosis is what is being held up as the ideal in the question. I think the question points to a sort of negotiation with what condition we find comes to us as opposed to a striving with our will.
I suppose this musing is to recognize that there's the Self Help magazine culture of American Dream achievement which is a ego centered striving and another Ecclesiastes 3:1 "There is a time for" awareness where one takes in the whole context.
And in that "there is a time" I'd wager there is a time for ego centered striving. I think it's, what, 16? 15?
I do believe we all have a natural flow that we must discover and seek to live according to that flow even if we are considered by society to be freaks. If we seek to go against this natural flow we damage ourselves inwardly. We must be true to the flow. I do think also there is a Nature Flow or cosmic flow. We all need to slow down and open our eyes to the oneness of all things/creation. As a Christian I am abiding in the flow of love between the Persons of the Godhead/union with the Risen Christ. I am in the flow of everlasting life In Christ Jesus. I seem to abide in Christ and experience the flow of divine life. peace
I heard a quote the other day from some Quaker thinker, did I mention it to you already? The architecture of the internet doesn't allow for pauses.
So Very True. I find that, at least for me, it's necessary for me to demand them, even if it annoys the internet culture folks.
RE: accepting a diagnosis, there's a treatment paradigm called "Acceptance and Commitment Therapy." The basis is accepting what is, for what it is. A kind of radical acceptance. If you're anxious, you accept it - you don't say "I'll accept it, because that might help me become less anxious" because that makes you *more* anxious ("Oh, crap, here I am accepting it, and it's not getting better!"). The acceptance is a kind of "I'm not fighting it any more - I'm letting it be what it is. If it lessens - great. If it doesn't - hey, it hasn't killed me, so here I am, being anxious."
The commitment is figuring out the life you want to live, and living it. And I reckon that this doesn't mean that a legless person is to "commit" to breaking the world high jump record (unless that's a thing - more power to 'em if it is!). It's more like, "losing my legs didn't kill me, what do I value that I still can do?"
But the acceptance - it doesn't mean denying growth or the possibility of getting better. It just means that you're not treating the diagnosis as a battle to be won (and *then*, after you've conquered "the enemy", *then* you'll be happy!). You take the diagnosis to be what it is, right now, and also, in the same time, try to be happy. And if the diagnosis changes, well, maybe it'll be easier for you to be happy, too.
(No idea if this is actually sensible - but it popped into my mind so I decided to share.)