E.G. (elainegrey) wrote,

I just have a couple days of "normal" this week before i fly east, first to see family in North Carolina, then to Ohio for work. I should use those days well.

Unfortunately Christine flies east when i get back, and she is dreading her trip. It's not unusual for her to have nightmares and dread before a trip, but i think it's a bit more intense this time.

We're just a pack of perkiness here!

I have been trying to discern if i should go on a trip to join other Friends in February. I think i need to be with Christine. Work has consumed me so much, that i think i need to be aware how much Friends consume me as well, so that Christine isn't left with table scraps of my awareness.

This weekend, for example, was a Friends weekend with a threshing session on Saturday that had me out of the house before 8 am and back after 1. Not the whole day, for certain, but she knows what my previous week was like. Sunday was Meeting for Business, which was remarkably quick, but it was a second day away.

The "you SHOULD go because it's on the west coast" voice needs to be quiet. I do believe my work will get better -- i will have more engaged staff because my manager is more engaged and the sense of powerlessness we all had seems to be ebbing. I think i may need to hold things together another few months, but hope that within six months i will have a work-life balance once again.

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