One huge chunk of issues is due to the fact no one moved on the scheduling when i was on vacation, and that fact is obscured in my colleague's mind: he only sees "We're having problems with the last mile."
I pushed around paperwork all evening in a bit of a mental haze, and i've canceled my Monday vacation. I know this isn't the wisest of mental health moves; on the other hand, i've got to get ahead of the relentless steam roller because i don't see how to get out of its way until we've dealt with a huge backlog. I do need a frank chat with my scrummaster: he attends the engineering meetings that go on forever, and i wonder if that takes too much of his time.
Anyhow, big exhale from me about work.
I "shoulda" had an appointment with my career counsellor this week but i continue in my behind-ness.
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Pissed. It may not be the actuality, but i feel like the build coordinator has just dumped something on me because he's gone off to attend the shindig with the new president. Rather annoyed that i was up late working, and i find this email at 7:18 for me to do crap before 9 am.
I'm somewhere between crying and quitting. I am not in position to quit, so i probably ought to have a good cry.
This is also posted at http://elainegrey.dreamwidth.org/454161.html .