March 18th, 2013


Only kinda back

I slept most of Saturday, yesterday was Meeting and a discussion afterward. I did cycle 30 minutes on the trainer: i am using the disruption of being away as opening a place for a more disciplined exercise practice. I thought a great deal about the spiritual and ecological value of disruption during worship. I was clerking the meeting for worship (to the extent there needs to be a clerk) and, when i do so, i often visualize plowing, thinking about preparing the self for receiving new awareness.

Plowing is a controlled, human chosen disruption. Ecological systems need other disruptions: floods that move silt and nutrients to fertile plains and estuaries, winds that knock down trees open up the forest canopy for younger plants to succeed, beavers dam creeks creating ponds that slowly fill to become meadows, fires convert dead wood to nutrients clearing underbrush and triggering new growths.

Disruption (destruction) opens way for new ways of being.

So framing the disruption of this ten days away as an opportunity for intentional change instead of an interruption that has me all "behind" at home.

I note that the value of disruption comes when one is prepared for it: plowing without sowing brings forth a crop of weeds, and ecosystems have evolved so that there are organisms waiting for the opportunity that disruption brings. I am prepared for a change where i exercise more, thus i was able to just do so yesterday.

What other ways can i prepare for disruption? (Getting back to the career clarity practice is another preparation for disruption.)

My other writing this morning was to a system which labeled me male on a profile page that was automatically set up for me.

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