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[Mar. 29th, 2013|07:16 am]
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I am out of sorts. I'm not quite sure what is misaligned, but i can tell i'm impatient with others at work, unmotivated, etc.

So, first step is i'm going to allow only 200-250 calories of starches and cut out artificial sweets. I've binged on cookie dough and donuts and candy so much that i don't think i can feel the negative sweet reaction anymore. That could be part of the funk, so i need to go cold turkey. I have an abiding suspicion that simple starches play out in this reaction as well, so those too need to go. I need to do this all weekend. Next Monday i can begin having some less refined grains again and then, hopefully, by next weekend, i won't be fighting cravings and temptations. We'll see.

And i MUST journal every morning, even if it's just self centered blather, because this morning purge is part of my good mental hygiene. Maybe tomorrow i can do a little more examination of the funk.

Today and this weekend i should try a graceful "dungeons and desktops" engagement. I must get some financial stuff done: file for flex monies, file travel receipts, pay corporate credit card. I also need to get up and move and do some house care. It doesn't matter what house care i try: any way i turn i see things i could do. So, roll the dice and clean for 20 minutes. It's progress, where ever it is.

OK, i've gone and set some "conditions of enoughness." I hope, if i can get sorted this weekend, i can make significant progress on my career clarity work next week and be moving on that again.

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[User Picture]From: tx_cronopio
2013-03-29 03:06 pm (UTC)
Yep. I find that if I just do anything, even if it's just 20 minutes, it helps break me out of my stupor.

And yes to the sugar. So much easier to just stay off it. I don't find it that appealing any more, but when I do slip, I can feel the tendrils of sugar addiction caressing my ankles ;)
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[User Picture]From: elainegrey
2013-03-30 03:35 pm (UTC)
Oh, the sugar. Currently i'm fighting it with caffeine. How long have you been staying away? I suppose it's like being alcoholic: it's never going to be something that lets me go.

(Wistfully recalls beautiful spun sugar egg with royal icing sighted at the store last night.)
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[User Picture]From: tx_cronopio
2013-03-31 02:37 pm (UTC)
It just kind of happened, about the time I hit 40 -- I've always been a sugar addict my whole life, and then boom, it started making me kind of nauseous. (Or nauseated...I can't remember, one of those is a wrong usage.) Anyway, it's been a great relief -- I can have cake, cookies, brownies for Engineer around the house and for the most part I don't even have the yen to touch them. But if I do get a yen, and give into it, I can kind of feel it coming back. So I mostly just avoid it. My whole family has lots of diabetes in our history, so it's just as well.
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[User Picture]From: gurdonark
2013-03-30 01:24 am (UTC)
Good resolution on the sugar! Even if it means you have to go peep-free at Easter :)

Journaling is good!
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[User Picture]From: elainegrey
2013-03-30 03:36 pm (UTC)
Today's test will be to make marzipan eggs without consuming any. I feel fairly confident i can succeed there. It's more about creating than consuming.
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